E is now seven months old and before she was born, I was really worried about how I'd cope going from just C's mummy to a mummy of two.
The first day we brought E home, C was very clingy with me. I'd never been apart from him so my hospital stay was a bit unsettling for him. Chris told me that he had been waking up in the middle of the night screaming. In these early days I really found it hard to divide my time between a newborn who constantly wanted feeding and a toddler who missed his mummy and wanted to be reassured.
E's cry scared C so he was a little withdrawn and trying to get the two of them to bed at night was a little difficult as they would wake each other with any sound they made.
After a few weeks, we found our feet and got into a routine. When E napped, C and I could have some mummy/son time doing whatever he wanted to do and I didn't have to worry about him feeling left out.
Seven months on, I feel like a pro. I feel like I've been doing this forever. I feel like I can divide my time equally between both children and keep them both happy. It helps now that E can walk about in her walker. They now play with each other and keep each other entertained.
Sometimes C does get a little frustrated when I can't help him with certain things because I'm feeding or changing E. He has very little patience but I think that's our only struggle.
Most importantly, I worried that my whole heart was filled with love for C so how could there possibly be room to love another? It doesn't work like that. You don't have to "share" that love. It's absolutely overwhelming. For both of them.
hey, my biggest fear when i was pregnant was that... how could i possibly love another child as much as i loved my first. I heard that I would not love the new baby as my heart already felt full. However as you know thats not the case as soon as the new baby is here its totally different and you love both children just as much. I felt so guilty for feeling like that when pregnant. xx
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